Life Lately, May '23
The last couple of months have felt like quite the whirlwind. And as someone who shares on social media and here, I wanted to fill you in on what has been going on since it’s been challenging to show up authentically given what we’ve been going through. In March, our family was hit with a nasty virus and for P, it just wouldn’t go away. When I was in San Francisco for my aunt’s birthday, P called me and told me he was driving himself to the hospital. Of course I came home right away (an insane story for another day that includes a $600 uber ride across the US / Canada border) and he spent the next 6 days in severe pain, waiting for tests and answers. The long and short of it is that we found out he has Crohn’s and would need surgery quite imminently. Last Wednesday, he underwent major gastrointestinal surgery. It went well but the healing path is real. It’s going to be some time before he feels back to normal. Which is now a new normal of this life diagnosis.
It’s been a challenging week/month/year(s) if I’m being completely honest. While I’m so grateful for so many things - the life we get to the live, the home we get to live it in, our boys, our families, I’m also sad, scared, frustrated and a little angry that this is happening, especially two years after Charlie’s surgery and procedures. It’s a lot for a family to go to. But I keep telling myself that it could be so much worse. It could also be a little better though ha.
Anyways, there isn’t a pretty bow to tie on this story. Just the truth of what is going on behind the scenes! I’ve spent the last few days doing my best to stay strong and grounded and centered. Through all of the practices I always share with all of you. I’ve tried to stick to my morning routine of movement and meditation, I’ve been listening to a lot of uplifting podcasts, and also audiobooks (loving Happy Days by Gabby Bernstein). He finally came home yesterday and we got to watch Succession which always gives me such an escape (the acting is so so so incredible). At night, I’ve been devouring Steven Pressfield’s incredible new memoir (Gov’t Cheese - don’t get turned off by the name). I’ve been leaning on my friends and family for emotional support as well but mostly I know that the best way for me to get through this time, learn from it and be there for my family is to strengthen and connect with myself. We all have the power within us to get through hard things. I know that because I’ve done it before. And we’ll do it again :)
Sending so much love. xx